Today I feel depressed. It's probably just because I have a bad cold.
My unemployment compensation is all gone. Dave's upset about it. He really wants me to get a good job to support him while in school. I have been applying all this time to different places. But who wants an old uneducated lady when there's pleanty of young college educated people out there. My girls are pretty depressed also.
A couple of weeks ago our home teacher pulled us aside in church to a private room and sat us down and had a little talk with us. He told us he recieved a spiritual message that there was something not right in our home spiritually. He wanted us to reveal to him what was going on that wasn't right. I had no idea what he wanted from us. Dave heard something totally different and isn't worried about it. I tend to stew about such things to much. Our home teacher has one of those "I'm the authority here" attitude, which rakes against my nerves. He always has a rebutle to everything we say. I wish he wasn't our home teacher. He doesn't have any pitty for us. I guess that's probably for our own good. But he starts lecturing to me and my girls, not Dave. Which bugs me so bad and makes the girls cry after he's gone. So I told them that since they are in a different ward and each have their own home teachers they didn't have to attend our home teacher. That little talk was very weird. After he asked what was going on in our home that wasn't in harmony with the spirit both he and Dave looked at me first thing expecting me to confess something. I know what I'm doing wrong. I'm a lazy bum, who isn't trying hard enough to get a job? I know that's what they both wanted me to say. I work 2 or 3 times a month tending a lady in our ward who had a stroke. I make $100 each day I'm there. At least I'm doing something. Doesn't count I guess. I don't know what else I can do.
They're a really weird family. One of those very extreme letter of the law no nonsense families.
I told Dave, if he is ever made our bishop, I am in big trouble. Dave said that would be good, then you would want to move. Dave thinks that He can sell our home and with the little money we make on it we can buy a little broken down shack or mobile home and fix it up. and that the spirit has been nudging him to do just that, I'm not kidding! He really wants to do that. I told him he could go jump.
